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today is really interesting,
besides that i was at home most of the day.

hrm.was online for 2.5 hours ONLY.
but still that was a record aft PSLE (x
hrm.i realised something.
that i cant chat with girls for as long as i can chat with guys.
no specific reason.
but honestly, i think guys are easier to talk to(:

and i found out some stuff.

firstly, that brendan TYE is darn nice to talk to.
compared to his reputation(x

secondly, that JY is SO DAMN EGOISTIC(:
ohhh.yea i remember! JY is CLEVER
i mean**ccllleevvveerrrr*cough**

thirdly, that brendan YEO likes ONE specific girl.
i wonder who~ hrmm...

fourthly, that cooking spaghetti is so time-consuming.
seriously.
i had to cook the sauce[i dont use bottled ones]
which took hrm. quite long.
and all that was WARM.
anyway, cooking's NICE.
it's an art(:
iloveyou*

ILOVEYOU*

I LOVE JESSE MCCARTNEY

Staring out at the rain with a heavy heart

it's the end of the world in my mind

then your voice pulls me back

like a wake-up call

I've been looking for the answer

somewhere

I couldn't see that it was right there

but now I know, what I didn't know

because you live and breathe

because you make me believe in myself

when nobody else can help

because you live girl

my world...

has twice as many stars in the sky

it's alright, I survived, I'm alive again

'cause of you made it through every storm

what is life? whats the use?

if you're killing time

I'm so glad I found an angel

someone who...

was there when all my hopes fell

I wanna fly looking in your eyes

because you live and breathe
because you make me believe in myself
when nobody else can help
because you live girl
my world...
has twice as many stars in the sky

because you live...I live

because you live, there's a reason

I carry on when I lose the fight

I want to give you what you've given mealways...

because you live and breathe
because you make me believe in myself
when nobody else can help
because you live girl
my world...
has twice as many stars in the sky

because you live and breathe

because you make me believe in myself

when nobody else can help

because you live girl

my world...

has everything I need to survive

because you live...I live I live

JY YOU SAW NOTHING!

i love this song.
for a reason unknown(:

iloveyou*

A-Damn good kisser.
B- Good all around person.
C- You're wild & crazy.
D- You have one of the best personalities ever.
E-You have a nice ass
F- People totally adore you.
G- You never let people tell you what to do.
H- You have a very good personality and looks.
I- You get hyper easily.
J- Everyone loves you.
K- You like to try new things.
L- You live to have fun.
M- Success comes easily to you.
N- You are absolutely beautiful.
O- You're an awesome person.
P- You are popular with all types of people.
Q- You are a hypocrite.
R- Sexy!
S- Easy to fall in love with.
T- You're loyal to those you love
U- You really like to chill.
V- You are not judgemental.
W- You are very broad minded.
X- You never let people tell you what to do.
Y- One of the best bfs/gfs anyone could ask for.
Z- You're a little too hard to find.

got this fron ng chee yang's blog(x
omg!
he said[quite indirectly]on his blog that he's gay.
anyway,he is. *hush

E-i have a nice ass?!NICE(: J LO the second(:
L-I live to have fun.DUH.beacause he lives,i live too(x
A-Damn good kisser.that waits to be seen.whoa~
I-I get hyper easily?erm.yea.but i dont really know.ask those i know very well(x
N-I'm absolutely beautiful?!i'm waiting for the guy of my dreams to say that to me(:
E-nice ass again?NICE`~

because you live and breathe<3

now playing- because you live by JESSE MCCARTNEY
i'm listening to because you live over and over and over again(:
darn i'm crazy over it(:

erm.
you know?
i dont wanna have any regrets when i live primary school?
i swear i didnt think you'd be offended by my simple opinion.
so.for our sake,
SORRY.
and i really mean it.
forgive me.
please.
why?why?why do you keep thinking i dont like you?
why do you hate me so much?
because i dont hang out with you?
ok.i'm sorry.
but you know the reason.you know it.
you dont understand how i feel.you dont.
would you accept somebody who doesnt accept you?
somebody who doesnt want you to hang out with their friends?
huiwen,jing ying,ling yue.i'm talking to you.
i hope you'll understand.
i hope you will.

because you live and breathe<3

you signed out immediately?
apology accepted.
SORRY too. ok.anyway
love you.
friends.<3

WINDTALKERS

one of the most heroic and touching scenes

watched a late night movie last night.excepy it wasnt very late.
this movie made me realise hoe horrible wars are.
the killing is horrible.
and it made me realise that tge world can be so unfair.
sergents,cadets get promoted during war.
FOR SURVIVING.FOR SURVIVING.
and the thing is,the main character-nicholas cage got promoted and survived because someone sacrificed himself.
oh and.i cant believe so many people die during war.
it's terrible.
the blood shed.the bullets fired.the lives lost.
another thing,war heroes get inspiration.from where?
from thinking of those lives lost,from their families.
why?
because,of their families and the friendship lost because of a bullet.a firing.

the story goes that by the Japs.nicholas cage had to protect a damn important decoder,a tribal person.

actually TWO of them.
thay decode stuff in seconds,others take hours.
yea.these code actually help them win warS.
so yea.he killed one of them because he was doing his job,
when one of the decoders were caught

WAR MAKE PEOPLE GO MAD.
they kill,they have hallucinations,they cant sleep.
the deaths...
yah.so why was he a hero?
because he died to save the other decoder.
he died at the veryvery last moment.
the moment when war was over.when they won.

it's awfully touching.
from beginning till the very end.

when you're feeling sad,
smile.that's all i'm asking for.
oh and you can eat chocolates.
because somehow it helps release some scientific stuff that makes you happy.
yea.so smile and chill.
because that's all i'm asking forr(:

oh yah.just read a book in 2 hours it's wayy good.
it's damn touching.
it made me tear(X
there's some disgusting stuff though.
it's something about a girl,sand piper[piper according to the way she likes.]
she's had oral s** with 10 boys.it's sort if an addiction.
when she finally realised ger mistake,too late.
her ex-ex-bf started harrasing her,her pet,her sis.
and finallt tried to rape her.
but in the midst of all,she met a guy.The Walker as he goes.
he helps her through
and despite the many hardships,lies,truths and up and downs,
they are an inseparatable pair.
her dad[divorced]finds about about the walker.
he's an ex-criminal.killed his nephew ACCIDENTALLY.
but his family never forgave him,no matter what.
finally they both were injured badly by piper's ex-ex-bf during the rape.
but through out thick and thin,their friendship and love built up.
the trail would start.

'aidan[his real name]you have an appoinment with the therapist tomorrow.you have you go'i whispered to him.
'i know,'he said.then, he stared into my eye'only if you'll go with me,'he said quietly.
when i smiled,his lips cracked open into a lopsided grin.
'nothing i'd rather do,'i said....
[an extract of 'Sandpiper' by ellen wittlinger]

i just wanted to be someone you could look up to in times of i dont know,
whatever...NOTHING ELSE.

interesting stuff.
abigail confessed.
he knows.
BUT somebody's jealous.but it aint me.
and no one knows who.

i'm in a fucking bad mood.
SHUT UP ok?!

i dont care anymore.
i dont wanna be someone who people tell their problems to and expect me to solve it.
you know,i wont mind if you're sharing your problem with me.
solving it step by step.
but i'm sick of being made use of.a minute i help you.
and the next you're with your *cough COOL cough* friends.
WTF

hmph.
and __[you know who]
i dont care anymore.
i wont even bother to...

even when everythings gone,all that is left behind is a trace of a beautiful memory<3

5 NOVEMBER.
yea.it's confirmed.
noon till anytime.

it's seriously yawn-able staying at home 24/7
well.not exactly.but it's boring anyway.
hah.going back to school tomorrow(:
hmm.absolutely nothing to write since i have absolutely nothing to do.not to talk about anything that's absolutely interesting.i'll get a happy song.
lemme think.
eek.my mom's crazy over my sis because she's i dont know....
my mom score ZERO in teaching.EEK

Living in my own world
Didn't understand
That anything can happen
When you take a chance
I never believed in
What I couldn't see
I never opened my heart
To all the possibilities

I know that something has changed
Never felt this way
And right here tonight
This could be the start
Of something new
It feels so right
To be here with you
And now looking in your eyes
I feel in my heart
The start of something new

Now who'd of ever thought that
We'd both be here tonight
And the world looks so much brighter
With you by my sideI know that something has changed
Never felt this wayI know it for real

This could be the start
Of something new
It feels so right
To be here with you
And now looking in your eyes
I feel in my heart
The start of something new

I never knew that it could happen
Till it happened to me
I didn't know it before
But now it's easy to see

It's a start
Of something new
It feels so right
To be here with you
And now looking in your eyesI feel in my heart
That it's the start
Of something new
It feels so right
To be here with you
And now looking in your eyesI feel in my heart
The start of something new
Start of something new

i'll sing that if you ask me to.
it's much easier than breaking free.
and i sound nicer.

even when everythings gone,all that is left behind is a trace of a beautiful memory<3

15 October[B YEO's BIRTHDAY]

speaking of fun.
didnt actually do much.
oh but still,i enjoyed myself(:
a whole bunch a WACKOS[us] playing the most hilarious stuff.
there's nothing much to say except that i had much fun(:
that's all that matters,right?(:

16 October[ABIGAIL's belated party]

ahh!
ALL-GIRLS.
speaking of which,makes me SMILE(:
actually all girls party's much FUN-NER than mixed!
oh and we played truth or dare.
abby probably figured my crush.DAMN.
dare-this probably top my 15 MOST EMBARRASING MOMENTS OF MY LIFE
i had to sing,SING in front of everyone-breaking free
my voice was CRANKY and SHAKY.
AWW.I SWEAR I COULD SING BETTER THAN THAT.I'VE GOT STAGE FRIGHT(x
wth

plus.
i want to organise a party too(:
oh yea.i cant make up my mind.
so i'll let the girls to vote.
reply(:

day-
sunday 29 oct or 5 nov
wednesday 1 nov or 8 nov
friday 3 nov or 10 nov

pick your TWO preferred dates and send via email or tag!
thanks.

i'm posting under cL's plead?

even when everythings gone,all that is left obehind is a trace of a beautiful memory<3

Name 15 friends.
Don't read the questionsuntil you've named the 15 ppl mixture ofboys n girls.
At the end of this,pass this down to 5 more ppl.
(not according to best friends, if not it wouldn't be fun)

1.claire
2.chuan ling
3.jean
4.rui xiong
5.zhi hao
6.huiwen
7.jun yang
8.elysha
9.ye shze
10.lyeann
11.brendan
12.ling yue
13.jing ying
14.tian jie
15.christine

who's #10's crush?
lyeann?
no idea.haha
i dont think she has one?does she?

have you ever thought of kissing #8?
NO!and NEVER?!i'm straight!

do you noe any of #12's family members?
no.s'he's the only child.and her dad's always away?

would you ever date #7?
OF COURSE!ANYTIME~

what is the deepest secret you noe abt #1?
eh?her crush?hahahah

would you ever be in a relationship wif #11?
no thanks.not my type.nice but not like-able.

what if #9 and #14 dated?
erm?ye shze would be nicer with hong jie.
tian jie and ye shze?!i think the world has gone NUTS!

did you ever crush on #6 before?
NO.see?i'm straight!

wad's ur fave. thing abt #5?
he's really nice.to everyone(:

wad's #2's fave?
eh?her pig issit?
or issit a PERSON???hahah

wad would you do if #10 confesses tat he/she likes you?
oh man.i think she's straight.
but if she does,i'll dodge!

who's #13 going out wif?
she's just a KID!
she's too innocent to think about guys (X
[see?i'm not!]

when is the last time you spoke to #13?
oh.hrmm..
yesterday morning to wish her luck.(:

who's #1's best fren?
someone in herr school,i think.
but i'm the top few in her list(:

would you ever date #4?
RUI XONG?!
maybe....
see?he's cL's i dont wanna interfere...
haha xD

do you ever like #7?
JUN YANG?!
DUH.the whole world KNEW.
now...only he knows.
right? (X

would #6 and #2 make a gd couple?
cL and huiwen?
NOT EVER.
cL's ruixiong's!

describe #3.
JEAN eh?
straight forward,in a good way.
bottled up.(X
and relatively easy to understand.
or maybe not...
hrmmm...

wad's the funniest thing abt #15?
shé notices the funniest and weirdest things arnd her.
and she doesnt like it when her hair pops up!

who's #9's crush?
ye shze?
dont know lah.
hong jie?

yay.my list is QUITE NORMAL.
WHEE~

even when everythings gone,all that is left behind is a trace of a beautiful memory<3

someone said something.
i want to comment on it.
here it goes...

that someone commented,like
you are not half as popular as me.
well,not so direct,of course.

i wanna say,
i dont give a shit about popularity.
I DONT
i'm really happy to have great friends,
friends who care about me.
it doesnt really matter if i'm not half as popular as you are
*pukes* to you.whatever that means.
and i'm not dumb.
indirectly,you're also trying to say
that i dont half as much as you deserve to hang out with cL or any of her cliques.
i'm glad that they like me,of course. [thank you(:]
but you see,i dont intend to be one of them.
they're GREAT,of course.
but now,i'm far more happy than words can describe to be someone they saw as a friend.
and that i am who i am.

i used to be one of them,that was,
years ago.
but no,i wasnt searching for popularity.i dont care!
i dont give a shit if you knew everyone in the world and boast about that fact.

i just like to be who i am with,
who i totally am,
and what i am.

i thought you werent who i thought you were,but i guess i'm wrong.
and a note to whoever's searching for popularity,
DONT.
everyone will find a place they fit in,
even if they were loosers.
because, loosers always win.
the irony is because,
they are worthy.they are.

just look at the mess you're in.

popularity?
i dont give a damn shit.

sorry,i needed to vent my anger.

even when everything's gone,all that is left behind is a trace of a beautiful memory<3'