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"Hui Jie, can I break dance with your speakers?"
~Meijun

mind you, she was referring to the piglet speakers.
which is really a piglet stuffed toy with speakers as its feet:D
amusing, no?
we were at her house being Maoris -.-
haha

anyway, please please please, help me do this quiz:

your help is immensely appreciated.
it's for our research studies thing.
Vote for your FAVOURITE.
if you've got any comments, please drop them in my tagboard :D
yes, so THANKS A TRILLION :D

I can no other answer make, but, thanks, and thanks.
~William Shakespeare

"It isn't the seekers of help who are cowards. It is those who need help but choose to lie low who are."

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I PASSED CHINESE!!!
is that amazing or what!
scraped it off,
but considering half the cohort failed, I guess I should be satisfied.
the next time, i'll aim for a 3.2(:

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it feels better now.
and thanks huijie, for everything :D
but that hole, i don't think it can be healed for a very long time.
but I'll live, for now.

I thought I knew what love is.
It's better than I thought.

tag replies:D

Rain: and YY THINKS ITS A CURTAIN TOO

Rain: you put my surname there! THATS VERY DANGEROUS YOU KNOW. But anyway I STILL INSIST THAT ITS A CURTAIN, or at least the mother chooses curtainlike material to make her dresses!
RIGHT. both of you are erm illogical.
the mom's hand is like beside the girl?
isnt it obvious?!

pingzheng: HAHAH HELLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, not gna tell you my url. HOW DID YOU KNOW I HAD ANOTHER ONE:D
LOL. you told me remember?
you turned me down 3 times.
sadded.
oh wells, it's okay :D haha. shall spam yr tagboard someday.

LINGYUE: who's jodi picoult? it's the person who wrote her sister's keeper right?
YESYES. sister's keeper was one *heaven* of a story.
hated the ending.
it made me cry ><

zx: alrite so i am dumb XD

zx: i tot it was a vase =X xD
NEW ENTRY =x
butbut. it looks more like a vase than a curtain(:
haha. you know the part that folds in[the curves of the woman], makes it look like a vase.
lol. at least you're sane (:

wenyuan: LOL HAPPY HAPPYYYYY TODAY (:

wenyuan: haha omg the girl's pervy xD
argh. dont rub it in that i'm not happy )):
lol!! yeah, come to think of it,
it's super cute.
& wrong!

yy: really what it LOOKS like a curtain. and my IQ is very high one ok. xD
awww. whateverr! your IQ might be high.
but your sanity[and logic]...
hmmmm....?
haha JKJK :D

doing tag replies made me happier.

I'm feeling all messed up now.
It's like I don't even know what I should feel.
sad would be an understatement.
maybe devastated, but not that serious.
extremely down.
depressed, yesyes.
depressed.
It's when everything refuses to go the way you wished it would go.
and not even in the selfish manner.
I just want to be accepted, happy even.
Ever wonder what's behind that thousand kilo-watt smile?
It's not even a conscience.
I already have a lot of that.
It's all that I've gone through but never figured out a solution.
All those disappointments, feelings of emptiness, hate, guilt, unanswered unknowns and rejection.
It's true I throw myself into whatever I have to do.
I don't want to face reality.
Someday all this emotions I bottle will break me down bit by bit,
I know it.
but what I really want now is a month to cry it all out.
not alone.
but not with anyone either.
what I really need now is a miracle.
what's all the practical words a murmur when that's a enormous hole burning in the middle of them,
piling one atop the other,
accumulating to no end,
to no solution.
What I really need now is a miracle.
Huijie I'm not kidding about who I want to see.
I detest every bit of confrontation.
I can't accept change.
I can't accept what's put in front of me till I've looked at it from all angles.
everytime I try, I'll eventually back out.
till I shrink into a speck of nothingness.
Maybe, just maybe, I could be, nothing.
What I need now is a miracle.

and his shoulder.

I'm sorry I can't even let my best of friends do the same.
There're some things which not everyone...

Goodnight and Goodbye.
I hate you cruel world.

my 200th post.
*congrats*
it took almost forever.
heh. slightly more than 2 years.
tsktsk

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Beatrice awaits her urm. FATE.
I could clobber her now.
anyway, what's her reliability percentage...?
:D

"Her skin is a delicate shade of chocolate brown, just a mite too dark for the common palate, and her flesh just minutely exceeds the average requirements of the common male today. Otherwise, she, to most boys is perfectly delectable."

i shant say who said this.
but i can swear it isnt about me.
haha!
anyway, it's a posh way of saying that she's erm, too tanned and a little to plump for him.
i guess he can put it rather sweetly if it's HIS girl.
say! he's sweet after all

dont you think that this is a professionally awesome piece of art?
it's done by huijie and me!
during aesthetics block.
we did this using adobe photoshop(:
the idea of putting the mask is mine(:
heh. huijie did most of the manual stuff cuz she didnt allow me to do it.
when i pointed that out to her when was eh praising herself[tsktsk], i pointed out that SHE DIDNT ALLOW ME TO DO IT!
okay, anyway, i was proving her wrong that i COULD draw straight lines.
and guess what?
i CAN draw straight lines!
ahha
she had to do the grey highlights for the words traloomba a MILLION times.
[till it was perfected]
because she couldnt make it straight!
i think i could have done it once.
HMPH
oh and the purple curvy lines?
we thought it looked nice after i was messing around with drawing straight lines.
so I redid it.
but then we thought nahh, too weird.
then we were experimenting when i thought of this nutsy idea of drawing curves of nothing.
yes, so that's how the purple lines came about.
except, huijie redid this another million times to perfect it.
heh. nownow, i cant draw smooth curvy lines for nuts!
heehee><
i think we did a wonderful job with the poster.

oh by the way,
the quarter mask on the bottom left is mine, the bottom right, hj's,
the top right, cheryl's and the top left, steph's.
yeah. we did it from scratch, from a slab of mud :D

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me: why cant you blog [almost] everyday, like me?
huijie: cuz there's nothing interesting to blog about.
me: NOTHING INTERESTING?!
huijie: i'm not going to blog about the crazy things i do in school manx.
me: hah! thank goodness i dont do anything crazy in school :D

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HIMHIMHIM(:

omgosh. i think i'm gonna be high tomorrow.

it's amazing.

"Why do they call it exact change when you don't get anything?"
~yours truly

if you havent noticed, the girl in yellow is hiding behind her mother, whose face cannot be seen and who is in blue.
guess what RAIN SOO saw it as?
hah.
the girl vanishing behind a curtain.
oh man, talk about hilarious.
esther and I were laughing our guts out :D
now that i put that image in my head,
it's gross ><>
she approaches touchy issues at a whole new level.
someday, I think I want to be a mother too.
Jodi Picoult writes books too touching
but every word in her books are worth each and every feeling of the heart twinging.

eh. i shant post about yesterday.
was too lazy.
oh wait. i AM gonna post a small part of it, later :D

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for WENYUAN, the spazziiiest person everr;

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING :D
thanks for everything.
you are the craziest person i have ever met but you're one of the few people i trust.
i'm sure you already know that (:
you can be too damn high, but i'll never be too low for you right :D
haha. everytime you scream or laugh that high pitched noise of yours, i'll treasure those crazy times we shared, as SEWBER, part of us, a group and just when it's the two of us.
and you'll always be remembered my my dear phone whom you bought one of his many siblings.
[it's a good thing you're rough with it. he's a big bully to his little brother]
&your signature hair; not one strand ever straying out of place.
tsktsk.
don't deny that.
I love you dearie,
for being nice,
mean,
crazy,
high,
sick as me,
for breaking the rules but getting off with it,
fro everything you are;
for everything you've been.
HEARTS YOU FOR JUST BEING WHO YOU ARE.
happy birthday(:

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Maroon 5 concert.
officially started a while ago.
but that's okay.
[look at previous posts]
haha.
and.
I WANT THE MAROON 5 ALBUM.
a POSTER would be a NECESSARY BONUS (:
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was listening to dirty little secret and the best day of my life consecutively yesterday alone, on huijie's ipod, in the coach.
then i stared out at the rain.
and all I could think about was him.
a year, three months plus ago.
so near and yet so far then.
now unreachable.
the nostalgia and regret.
I now know I fell too hard, too deep.
oh, I miss him so much.

someone to take his place,
but never to fit perfectly

Kukup was good(:
though I saw less than what I expected to see,
but learnt more then what i expected to(:
heh.
pufferfish are so small!
i thought they were huge.
hmm. and jellyfish's cap thingys are hard!
and garoupas' when fully grown are huge and monstrous.
i'm NOT joking about that. ask Rain!
oh yeah.
we travelled more than we explored that place manx.
say. we left school at arnd 7.30
and got off the bus at Kukup at around 10-10.30?
heh. then we left at 1.30 to reach RG at 3.30!
heh. then i travelled home.
and slept till 7!
omgosh. when i woke up, i swear i thought i slept for only half and hour ><
[hah. shall cont to post tmr. too tired.]

i suddenly miss him being by my side so much.

"Pardon my typing. My middle finger is temporarily unusable." ~me
"WHAT'D YOU DO WITH IT?!" ~waye

isnt that just hilarious?
put two and two together, plus me -
what do you expect! :D
eeeeek.
hurt my middle finger yesterday.
[dont ask how]
hurts like crap!
you can see the blood clot under the skin.
it's about twice the size of my other middle finger.
pfffts.

lala.
being cooped up at home with no music is just about the worse thing that could happen to me on Sundays.
shouldnt have went for thursday creative.
then at least i get out of the house today.
anyway! i convinced my parents to go out for dinner today!
haha.
again! cool right?
fyi, i'm suaning huijie.
and. on another plus side,
i've got SIX books to read!
:D:D:D
went to the library yesterday, obviously.
2 jodi picoult, 1 louise bagshawe, 1 tim bowler, 2 james patterson!
my favourite writers!
haha.
ohoh.and more recommendations.
Robert Muchamore's Cherub Series.
i'm in love with those too! :D
i've read every single book except the one that is yet to be released(:
haha. okay that was such a redundant comment.

lastly, in contrary with kenneth's hopes, CHELSEA should beat arsenal.
=x
dont have anything against arsenal but yeah.

damn. typing makes my middle hurt though i'm hardly using it.
should've seen how difficult it was for me to play the piano this morning=x
and ~~shall~~ will see it covered up in a huge bandage tomorrow.
shant risk getting it hit again.

yes. that's it folks(:
~~what rubbish~~

Not what we give,
But what we share,
For the gift
without the giver
Is bare.
Thank you;

"Yet I'm unable to get that pleasure, for there are things in this world which we sometimes can't get at first but instead have to work before we get it. And that's exactly what I'm going to do. Work for her laughter."
~Tej

that's just so sweet.
and oh, according to him, it's not meant for anyone in particular.
do I believe that?!
okay. it is.
see? i'm right!
lol.
anyway, sometimes, nothing motivates me, like now.
and when i read that i was kind of inspired.
no reason.
i guess it's the fact that a guy wrote it?
hah. that girl is so lucky :D

and the previous post?
well was kind of upset that they didnt allow and still dont.
it wasnt an impulse kind of thing.
because that's just true.
the facts, you know?
but even if i dont go this time, there'll always be a next time.
and the next time they come, you know where to find me.
yes.
I love Maroon 5 for all it's worth.

"I don't dare to face it, more then I do not know how."

I dont have the guts to ask my parents to buy me tickets for THE MAROON 5 concert.
I dont have anything to redeem those tickets.
fck math man.
i missed a few marks to get 3.6
they dont know how hard i worked for it.
and i still couldnt get it.
not like they really care anyway,
they're always giving a crap about my 'tude and unnecessary stuff-
lecturing me on how i'm acting.
i'm fourteen already.
unlike the goody two shoes me when I was 11/12?
there's a reason for everything I do.
i dont just do it because everyone else is.
i'm rational, i care, i really do.
they just dont know me well enough.
they only think they know me.
well, i've changed.
or maybe i havent, i dont know.
but one thing i'm sure about,
you dont know any of us, and you dont even bother to try to.
we change, and we're too unlike you.

i did ask my dad, but you see, my dad only agrees to pay.
my fcking mom disagrees to even let me go.

it's amazing that my dad understands us better than she does.
even though his actions only subtly show it.

a hundred and twenty five bucks.
isnt even worth me.
that much i understand what you think of me.
too damn much.

"You're an amazing little dancer, you know that right? "
little, and that is really the best realistic compliment I could get.
because i'm really not all that great.

watched step up 2 the streets yesterday!
it was too damn good.
i'm just referring to the dance moves.
choreography was excellent(:
i loovved the last part of it, the last dance.
omgosh.
i dont really know how to express my awe for it =x
ahha!
eeee. CHANNING ROCKS HARDER THAN HOFFMAN!
[the harder part never fails to amuse me!]
hah.

ROBERTO BOLLE ROCKS THE HARDEST!
he inspired me.
he dances so well, I dont have the time to be awed when I watch him.
but oh! am I stupefied
a good thing nevertheless.

LJ hasnt been too bad.
but today's trip to sungei buloh was not exactly fun.
you see, it was more of a classroom lesson.
so why bother bringing us out?
at least drop the worksheet and let us walk and look out for ourselves along trails!
hmph. walking on the board walk in jeans?
uncomfortable and well, uninteresting, considering how much talking was done as compared to the spotting of wildlife.
oh wells, it wasnt too bad at the end la!
the monitor lizard and what huijie and i overheard mr de souza yalking about made it amusing!
the HDB tour thing was not too bad either.
spent alot of time in the tour bus!
eh. toa payoh is interesting!
it's amazing how much history Singapore has with its short stories and wondrous facts.
heh. but the tour guide's voice was deafening through the bus speakers=x
was damn tired during the last tour in the bus.
huijie slept on my shoulder throughout.
*do you know how much her hair tickles?!
LOL!

i'll bet the trip to Kukup is gonna be a *heaven* lot more engaging:D
mondaymondaymoday!
as for now,we have three days to slack, really.
shall go for CANTATA!
haha!
and then the ACJC carnival the next Saturday.
who else wants to go?!
order tickets though me!
[i'll order through someone else]

oh yeah, HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEAN!! :D
loveloads(:

creative was not so interesting=x hrmm.
beatrice didnt come!!
i just realise that my sec 3 neighbour goes there to!
he's a guy.
we're both as shocked.
fate, i guess-
in so many things.

and one more thing,
HAPPY EASTER!
someone give me chocolate eggs or egg bunnies pleeeaaaseee?
my dad wanted to buy the really ex ones for me but i told him it wasnt worth it=x
well, it really wasnt.

p.s. just to eh. spite[?!] huijie, or I'd rather say it as amuse her, 'amuse' is my old word.
gosh. she finds that so amusing.

because of the thin line between them.

"I'M UNIQUE, not weird.
I'M NOT DELUDING MYSELF.
Because I'M BEING WHO I AM."
so get on with it.

ballet exam was a BLAST :D
my whole group made our unfriendly examiner laugh during character reverence because the 4 of us, we all stunned at the last part together!
was funny anyway.
ms winnie had to control herself from bursting with laughter.
first time something like that has ever happened(:
erm. another minor mistake- i went the wrong direction during petite allegro-
dang. was obviously damn obvious!
ended up doing the same direction as valerie-.-
tsktsk. maybe because i picked up without crumpling, ms liu would be kind ><
and barre! i started one with wrong leg in front.
was obvious too ):
the polonaise. i started one count early ):
was ultra tense.
hopefully, those mistakes are forgivable.
ms liu was nicer than expected:D
i'm aiming high

i'm kind of happy/sad/relieved now that it's over.
but look forward elaine, look forward.

i'm currently nuts over DAVID ARCHULETA!

he's got that smile HE has.

"It's not how good you are, it's how good you want to be."

TOMORROW....!!
ballet exams.
BLESS ME.

heaheah!
i'm ponning the WHOLE day of school :D
though exams in the afternoon.
means no erm lessons of erm for 2 hours straight.
but. i'll miss the last session of rock-climbing!!!
sadded.
oh, who cares.
there's LJ from this wednesday!
means no lessons too(:

THE SEEKER: The Dark is Rising.
[also] one of the best movies ever :D
ALEX LUDWIG!
he's too damn cute.

oh and. step up 2.
hmm. probably sometime THIS week(:
screwww. Robert Hoffman is too damn good a street dancer for my liking.
Hence, I adore him.

ohh. absolute nonsence.
i have abosolutely nothing to blog about.
and even if i blogged about ballet, no one would understand
pfftts.

anyway,
i havent reached my expectation level.
help me please.
give me the confidence i never had.
but soon enough.
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because it's how good i WANT to be.

1. A random person yells to you"Aybaybeh".
What's your reaction?
*roll my eyes and scram!

2. What was the last thing you put in your mouth?
*a damn nice chocolate biscuit with pink marshmallows in it.
i want another one(:

3. What is the last song you heard?
*Roc boys by Jay-z;a great song to dance to.
speaking from experiencnce?

5. What's irritating you at this moment?
*shant say it here.

6. What are you doing tomorrow?
* BALLET EXAMS!!
it's kindof looking forward and dreading it sort of feeling.
looking forward because wel... why not?!
dreading it because i dont want it to be over so quickly.
grade 6 was great.

7. What did you do yesterday?
*erm. mostly slacked at home and practised ALOT for ballet and watched THE SEEKER!

8. How do you feel about your ex?
*will you be my first.
[gags]

9.What did you do today?
*read, slept, talked to huijie on the phone, SLACKED.

10. Know anyone named Monique?
*nope. that name kind of rings in your ears, doesnt it?

11. Do you have any siblings?
*abrother and a sister, both irritating obviously.

12. Are you signed onto AIM?
*nope.

14. Who's your most religious friend?
*no idea. otherwise, it's my mom and bro-.-

15. Who's the last person who called you?
*Hui Jie

16. If you could change your name to anything what would it be?
*I've never and would never thing about that, ever.

17. What was the best compliment someone has given you today?
*your mechanics is so young.[my dad talking about my math]
compliment much?

19. Do you curse?
*undeniably. it's not something i'm proud of, yo.

20. Last time you took a plane, where was it to?
*BEIJING!

21. How many times a day do you login?
*i dont know? depends. average, once.

22. Do you love someone?
*duh!

23. What's the first thing you would do with five billion dollars?
*

24. Do you party?
*occasionally? ha.ha.

25. Who's the first person on your topfriends, and why?
*as in facebook? i dont know, i'm currently too busy and lazy to check.
but topfriends. hmm...

26. What was the last thing you bought?
*MnMs PEANUTS!
my vice.
but ONLY those from Aussie!

27. Next thing you'll spend money on?
*i dont know manx.

28. What's one toy you remember having?
*PO stuffed toy, from teletubbies?

30. Look through the 2 nearest windows what do you see?
*my next-block neighbours?

31. What's your mouse pad look like?
*i dont use one(:
otherwise, its this tiny, yellow one.

32. Where is your first drift?
*never?

33. Which one of your friends do you argue with the most?
*Hui Jie, duh! haha!

34. What is your ethnicity?
*Malaysian chinese and China Chinese[?!]

35. What's your dream job?
*that's for ME, to know, and for YOU, to find out.
up to now, only my family and another guy knows.
so tough luck trying to find out.

36. Who's your crush?
*currently, fen hong yi ren. lol
or alex ludwig
or max thieriot
or christensen
of hoffman[he doesnt count as crush though]
i'm absurd.

37. If you could have any car what would it be?
*one of those F1 racers?
LOL!

38. What's your favorite breakfast food?
*changes from time to time, but currently, it's CAKE!!

39. How do you like your eggs?
*sunny! haha or half-boiled

40. If you could get any piercing what would it be?
*whatdoyoucallthat? oh right. belly piercing!
i've dont my ears alr.
i'm gonna get that belly piercing and a tattoo done when i'm older(:

41. How about a tattoo?
*ohhhh, now we talk about it!
erm. i've already decided to have one at my lower back since i was p2?

42. What mood are you in?
*happy, quesy and tensed.
BALLET EXAMS. whaddya expect?!

43. What's a movie you want to see in the theaters?
*JUMPER!!

44. Where else would you want to live?
*oh, BRITAIN! of Paris. yeah right.

47. Where will your next car ride be to?
*NUSS Kent Ridge! for dinner(:

48. If you could live in any TV show, what would it be?
*SMALLVILLE, anytime!

49. Your Favorite Planet?
*the unPLUTO! ahah! reminds me of the super cure stuffed toy my bro has (:

50. What made you cry last?
*the last book[s] I read-My Sister's keeper and ...

"Cut the shite."

"Lincoln Six-Echo: [talking to McCord and sees a poster] Are these your friends?
McCord: eh... sometimes
Lincoln Six-Echo: Where are their clothes?
McCord: um... well "

Lincoln Six-Echo: "What's sex?
Tom Lincoln: Wait ? you're a virgin? You've been kicking around with *her* and you're a... a v-v-virgin? Well, I won't spoil the surprise. Boy, are you in for a treat."

Jordan Two-Delta: [watching motorcycle scream down the asphalt] "What was that?
Lincoln Six-Echo: I don't know.
Lincoln Six-Echo: But I want one."

McCord: All right, look. I know you're new to the whole human experiences and all... but there's one universal truth and that is you never give a woman your credit card.

THE ISLAND's got to one of the best movies ever!

THREE DAYS!

"Mmm...Surprise Me."

yesterday

went to watch jumper and went bowling :D
the six of us!
ahha.
due to some reasons, they probably know of, i shant name who i went out with.
heh.
but yesyes, i love them alot.
anyway, JUMPER ROCKS BIG TIME :D
i love it so much(:
ahah.
Hayden Christensen & Max Thieriot!!
i disagree with my dad!
every part of it was damn good.
the plot might be simple but it's so smooth, so i guess that's what matters.
the jumpers look super sleek in their cloaks and whatnots!
the ending wasnt to bad my dear, it's kind of sweet and sour at the same time.
but i figured that out at the beginning-.-
as in the mom thing.

BOWLING!
hah. 6 people, one lane.
guess how long that took us?!
anyway, it was damn fun.
but it got very tiring after a while.
I CAN BEAT erm. THE CANOEIST ((:
THE GYMNAST PWNED THE SECOND GAME [it's the second game she ever played] WITH A SCORE of EIGHTY SOMETHING.
THE TRACKER BEAT ME BY A LITTLE the first round, MAKING ME SECOND.
JIA YOU TO THE OTHER TWO :D
haha. i'm so sorry i cant put your names here =x
haha!
anyway, they've all become so grown up.
makes me love them more(:

yes, we enjoyed ourselves pretty much.
we'll do it again soon!
and i have to plan again??!!!
wahahahahaha.

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woke up at 7.30 to climb bukit timah hill.
reached the summit in record time :D
was dead tired manx.
so when i came home at 9. i slept till 12:D
and i shall start doing homework now.
sadded.
yes. and practice ballet later.
evreyday.
YES, BALLET EVERYDAY :D

"Surprise me."

144 days to August 2nd.
ohmygosh.
I CANNOT WAIT.
BREAKING DAWN
therefore, you can give me the book as a 1 month and 1 day late present.
i honestly dont mind.
someone promise me please?
pretty pretty pleasepleasepleaseeeeeeee?

I let my heart trip before my feet allowed me to
today;
for the second time in my life.

i gave up,
and i'm not even sorry,
for myself.

thanks for being useless elaine.

"Take care of my heart- I left it with you."

yesterday(:
R.O.C.K.e.d
started after huijie spooked both of us about about an imaginary[hopefully] bai yi ren.
lollers.
no comment about the fen hong yi ren in hui jie's blog!
claudia, hui jie and i started making the lamest joke ever.
and i was being slow at some point, and claudia pointes it out to me.
so i said, quite spontaneously:
"i'm not slow, i'm cold!"
doesnt make much sense
but if you follow my train of thought,
i said it cuz the joke she said, was cold.
so i blurted the i'm cold thing without thinking[much].

ohoh.
and the funniest!

Shaothepau: Oh dear! Elaine, can i borrow your red paint.
Me: eh sure.
[shaowei picks up the tube of paint that is covered in RED,which says 'vermilion' on it]
Shaothepao: Is vermilion red?
Me: NOOOOOOOOOooooooooo!it's BLUEEeeeeee.
Shaothepao[whiny]: OH DEAR! i need redddd!

she took veryvery long to figure that out.
lol.
chew chia is so gullible(:
and i'm NUTS(:
everyone is!
but. guess who started it?!
not so difficult to ~~guess~~ figure it out right?

ohoh. our entire bench was talking in weird voices.
tsktsk. we were so unbelievably high.
kind of embarrassing you know?
and hui jie held a personal conversation with huijie1 and huijie2.
i'm not surprised, mind you.
i'm influential.
well, sort-off.
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skipped lunch and had bad gastric today.
thy shall learn from her mistakes.
vomiting, freezing and having headaches are not the best things that could happen to one.
pffffft.
i did feel really bad.
oh great. i have a food restriction and constriction.
ended up missing softball and that totally sucks.
i'm far behind enough )':
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ECLIPSE!
i'm at page 567,
coincidentally.
i'm in a love-hate relationship with it, currently.
but really, they're both the most passionate emotions on earth.
heh. i dont wanna put it down.
but now i dont wanna pick it up because
i dont want it to end, ever.
but i NEED to read it or i'll start whining tomorrow.
and trust me, i had to sleep very late the past few nights because of it.
and i slept horribly.
the plot and characters never escaping from my thoughts.
everything, yes everything makes me link to something to do with the story.
omgosh. i'm a gonner.
ohh;what it will be like to be Bella.
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been feeling kind of empty lately.
like no one cares in their sub-consciousness.
maybe i'm just being sensitive and bizarre.
but i feel out of place
as i succumb,
and hide in frustration.

tian jie's words suddenly mean more than ever.
i need.

"Take care of my heart- I left it with you."

and i wonder what it feels like to be in love.

love, the basis of everything possible.

so i didnt climb to the sixth/seventh or the top panel.
but it doesnt matter,
i'll try a different lane on friday.
lane 3 for four weeks.
ROCK CLIMBING ROCKS HARD.
-sounds so freakishly wrong!-
i didnt continue climbing cuz i really didnt want to hurt my arm like i did the other time.
ballet exams[i cant afford to miss practices] are far too near and it's priority!
neeaahaha. i'm gonna work so hard for it (:
everyday, twice, if that's what it takes.

operation new moon completed.
took unbelievably long.
screww distractions.
i simply cant stop thinking about it every moment when i'm not reading it.
but if i read it, SOME PEOPLE insist on distracting me.
and if you havent realised, i'm quite in love with the characters.
very, in fact.

"This is heaven-smack in the middle of hell."

-kiss me, sweetly, tentatively.

that's all i want to know.

oh edward;

best books of the decade.

shall do a really short overall review on them soon.
watch out!
meanwhile, go read it.
i promise you'll be hooked:D

edward?jacob?
EDWARD.