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I believe in fairies, I do, I do.
Elaine.0707 RGS Class of 2010 Fencing Ekam Eveileb I'm coming to find you even if it takes all night;♥ |
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I'm feeling all messed up now. It's like I don't even know what I should feel. sad would be an understatement. maybe devastated, but not that serious. extremely down. depressed, yesyes. depressed. It's when everything refuses to go the way you wished it would go. and not even in the selfish manner. I just want to be accepted, happy even. Ever wonder what's behind that thousand kilo-watt smile? It's not even a conscience. I already have a lot of that. It's all that I've gone through but never figured out a solution. All those disappointments, feelings of emptiness, hate, guilt, unanswered unknowns and rejection. It's true I throw myself into whatever I have to do. I don't want to face reality. Someday all this emotions I bottle will break me down bit by bit, I know it. but what I really want now is a month to cry it all out. not alone. but not with anyone either. what I really need now is a miracle. what's all the practical words a murmur when that's a enormous hole burning in the middle of them, piling one atop the other, accumulating to no end, to no solution. What I really need now is a miracle. Huijie I'm not kidding about who I want to see. I detest every bit of confrontation. I can't accept change. I can't accept what's put in front of me till I've looked at it from all angles. everytime I try, I'll eventually back out. till I shrink into a speck of nothingness. Maybe, just maybe, I could be, nothing. What I need now is a miracle. and his shoulder. I'm sorry I can't even let my best of friends do the same. There're some things which not everyone... Goodnight and Goodbye. I hate you cruel world. |