feeling super unmotivated in life in general.

suddenly can't concentrate studying, get super discouraged easily, don't feel like going for training, don't feel like doing anything at all SIGH):

I suddenly feel like there's a shitload ton of stuff piled on me but I don't really know what.

it's the SA season and PTs and AAs and Interschools):

I guess this happens when you've got nothing to look forward to and you where you are in life now is really not where you want to be.

actually, maybe I have things to look forward to but they're just so far away from where I stand now and there're so many hurdles to cross over before I can reach it and I feel discouraged just thinking about them hurdles ahead of me. Look forward to Wednesday and baking with Beatrice, maybe that's good enough to carry me through the week.We'll see.

because the clock can't rewind and time won't pass.

HAPPY SWEET 16th KEVIN!