When fate gives you a second shot, take it

but when you try really hard and fail again, take the hint.

sorry, my life's running on negativity so much now):
I can't quit being pessimistic even if I try because everyone else doesn't believe in me anyway.
I'm not going to show my parents my math paper when I get it back.
thing is, even if I scored 100% in M1, and M2 is a disaster, they'd judge me on M2, not M1.
But I did try, and it's not my fault I have a tendendy to panic when I can't do stuff.

fuck, I'm bloody 16 and still doing things to please my parents.
DO WE EVER GET OUT OF THIS HELL HOLE?